Happiness…

I was talking with a friend of mine today: he says he’s lonely. He’s surrounded by people, by “Tier 2” & “Tier 3” friends. But he says all he wants is a “Tier 1” friend with whom he can share his whole life. Perhaps he should just “settle” into a loveless marriage with a girlfriend pursuing him? Maybe then he’ll avoid the nagging loneliness that pursues him throughout the day. But that won’t cure the lonely.  A lonely that is pushing him towards questioning the “meaning” to his life.

He’s 26. As am I. We’re still babies some would say. Yet many of us in this age range are battling with such complex circumstances and such huge universal doomsday questions, that some others may say we are being thrusted into a position for which we we may not truly be ready, but is making us grow up, fast, nonetheless. This certain chaos  throughout the world has been feeding off the base ego of man. It is crescendoing up to a climax.  When we get there, either ego will lead it to implode upon its own dissonance or we may yet resurrect Kali and ride the decrescendo back to a point of harmony. Will our generation live up to its potential?

Painting by Jessica Juarez

We feel the full weight of knowing there was something, subtle, that our parent generation missed. And something of which the generation between us and that of our children are being robbed. We are fully aware that we are soon going to be coming into our own. Into our power. Into our era. Our chapter in history. And it is going to be up to us to do something about the state of the union of humanity.

My friend complained of not having anyone to share this seemingly hopeless life with. Who can validate his existence? If not another soul? What’s the point of living, if not to share energy with another? His happiness was in the hands of others. His happiness depends on energy outside himself.

However, not until you yourself are happy, do you start to resonate on that frequency and begin to harmonize with others on that frequency. Suddenly, voila! Happy people outside your Self are making you happy! But it doesn’t happen until you first heal yourself and reach a point of contentment and happiness.

We are one organism having multiple experiences. By interacting with other parts of our Self, we can begin to put the pieces of the puzzle back together and come closer to a wholistic vantage of this human experience. Therefore, our happiness ultimately lies within ourself.

And so happiness is not something you find outside of yourself, but something you create within. Only when each and every one of us take on the personal responsibility to heal ourselves and actualize our ideal selves will humanity reach harmony. We are all one note in the symphony of life, and unless we are kink out the sweet dissonance within our own self, will we be able to kink out the dissonance throughout the earth.


A Goddess Returns


Cosmic Orgasm

Awakening Shakti & Ressurecting Kali

experiencing the Cosmic Orgasm

The Expanding Light Echo of Red Supergiant Star V838 Monocerotis
Source: Hubblesite.org


Normalcy Bias v Situational Awareness

The normalcy bias refers to a mental state people enter when facing a disaster. It causes people to underestimate both the possibility of a disaster occurring and its possible effects. This often results in situations where people fail to adequately prepare for a disaster, and on a larger scale, the failure of the government to include the populace in its disaster preparations. The assumption that is made in the case of the normalcy bias is that since a disaster never has occurred that it never will occur. It also results in the inability of people to cope with a disaster once it occurs. People with a normalcy bias have difficulties reacting to something they have not experienced before. People also tend to interpret warnings in the most optimistic way possible, seizing on any ambiguities to infer a less serious situation.

The normalcy bias often results in unnecessary deaths in disaster situations. The lack of preparation for disasters often leads to inadequate shelter, supplies, and evacuation plans. Even when all these things are in place, individuals with a normalcy bias often refuse to leave their homes. Studies have shown that more than 70% of people check with others before deciding to evacuate.

The normalcy bias also causes people to drastically underestimate the effects of the disaster. Therefore, they think that everything will be all right, while information from the radio, television, or neighbors gives them reason to believe there is a risk. This creates a cognitive dissonance that they then must work to eliminate. Some manage to eliminate it by refusing to believe new warnings coming in and refusing to evacuate (maintaining the normalcy bias), while others eliminate the dissonance by escaping the danger. The possibility that some may refuse to evacuate causes significant problems in disaster planning.

Conversely Situational Awareness or SA, is the perception of environmental elements with respect to time and/or space, the comprehension of their meaning, and the projection of their status after some variable has changed, such as time. It is also a field of study concerned with perception of the environment critical to decision-makers in complex, dynamic areas from aviation, air traffic control, power plant operations, military command and control, and emergency services such as fire fighting and policing; to more ordinary but nevertheless complex tasks such as driving an automobile or motorcycle

Situation Awareness involves being aware of what is happening around you to understand how information, events, and your own actions will impact your goals and objectives, both now and in the near future. Situational Awareness is the combining of new information with existing knowledge in working memory and the development of a composite picture of the situation along with projections of future status and subsequent decisions as to appropriate courses of action to take. SA is the continuous extraction of environmental information along with integration of this information with previous knowledge to form a coherent mental picture, and the end use of that mental picture in directing further perception and anticipating future need.

SA is also the ability to maintain a constant, clear mental picture of relevant information and the tactical situation including friendly and threat situations.

Situational Awareness is 1 part deliberate environmental cue absorption & 1 part organic intuitive processing

Situational Awareness is also the result of perceiving cues from the MOMENT, being PRESENT & fully AWARE

conversely Normalcy Bias is a filter of the PRESENT via our prejudices based off of PAST experiences & expectations for the FUTURE

Normalcy Bias is fear <~>Situational Awareness is acceptance


Osho Quote

We are miserable because we are too much in the self. What does it mean when I say we are too much in the self? And what exactly happens when we are too much in the self? Either you can be in existence or you can be in the self–both are not possible together. To be in the self means to be apart, to be separate. To be in the self means to become an island. To be in the self means to draw a boundary line around you. To be in the self means to make a distinction between this I am’ and that I am not’. The definition, the boundary, between I and not I is what the self is–the self isolates. And it makes you frozen–you are no longer flowing. If you are flowing the self cannot exist. Hence people have become almost like ice-cubes. They dont have any warmth, they dont have any love–love is warmth and they are afraid of love. If warmth comes to them they will start melting and the boundaries will disappear. In love the boundaries disappear; in joy also the boundaries disappear, because joy is not cold.


Buddha Quote

The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, nor to worry about the future, but to live the present moment wisely and earnestly.


Buddha Quote

To enjoy good health, to bring true happiness to one’s family, to bring peace to all, one must first discipline and control one’s own mind.


On Spectral Geography (via Nick Ward Scenarios)

Interesting impact the power of Kali’s energy had on this author…

On Spectral Geography ‘Kali’ (2010, water-colour, ink, acrylic on 4xA4 card), by Nick Ward The Goddess Kali is something else! In Indian transcendental-ritual practice she represents some pretty shattering metaphysical concepts like 1. Creation 2. Preservation 3. Dissolution. My personal tantric practice is heavily into ‘ritual’ activity – this painting is a good example. I finished it this morning (14/8/2010) to the ironic and laid-back sounds of Alex Lester’s 2am – … Read More

via Nick Ward Scenarios


Me. A Video Girl?

I was recently asked by a director friend of mine to be in a music video he was directing. He stated I would be one of 3 women who would be shown in the video. Now, a part of me, my ego, was for a split second flattered. But I quickly checked myself as I processed through my head all of the other times I’ve ever seen a woman portrayed in a video. They are usually clothed in a way to showcase their sexuality. They are usually posed in a way to showcase their sexuality. They are usually featured in relation to the men to showcase their sexuality. And they are usually not given speaking roles. So as not to take away from their sexuality. In short: they are not given any other identity other than their sexuality. Objectified. Exotified. or reduced to a sexual accessory of the male protagonist…

Now, don’t get me wrong, I’m a very sexual creature. I’m overtly sexual one may say. I have never feared discussing it. And encourage other women to embrace their sexual power as well. However that is all done on my terms. With my own words and actions.

But I thought to myself… I know him… he knows me… perhaps I’m not giving him credit…

So I replied “In order for me to make an informed decision, I’m gonna need the lyrics to the song, the storyboard for the video, & the design for makeup & costume”

He emails me:

The song title: “She Wants A Man”

The concept: Homage to Prince; 3 women are painted like animals, a Cheetah, a Leapard & a Zebra; Apparently, I would make the perfect Zebra!

The lyrics: includes a line of “fucking like animals”

My role: one of the animals (the Zebra to be exact) he fucked??

My response: NO THANK YOU

My feelings: Slightly insulted (Does he not KNOW who I am? My sexual preference? My beliefs? Has he never heard me go off on a feminist rant?!?!? I thought EVERYBODY had by now!)

And now I can’t get over the obvious fact that there is still so much more work to do!

So I say a BIG THANK YOU to my very talented director-friend for reminding me why I do what I do.